It’s a regular day, in an every day city, and I’m in the middle of it. I enter the train with the rest of the commuters and look around. The people cram in, talking and chatting, some crying, some sullen, some drunk…and I can feel it. I feel it all and somehow I know how they feel. I put my earphones in, trying to focus on one thing…focus on one thing…focus. I breath it out.
Five minutes later.
The next train stop, the next slew of people. Now we’re more crammed, now there are more noises so I turn my music up, trying to focus on one thing…focus on one thing…focus. {Sensitivity & Awareness, in need of love}
I look up and he’s looking at me, I turn to the right, she’s looking at me…my palms get sweaty, my heart starts racing, is there something wrong? What’s on my face? What have I done wrong? Have I offended someone? I put my head down, trying to focus on one thing…looking at the strands of fabric on my jeans…focus on one thing….focus. { Anxiety, in need of love }
Flashback. Panic. I smell his cologne, is he here? Where is that smell coming from? I bury my nose into my backpack, close my eyes, and rush out at the next stop. Was it him, or was it someone just wearing the same perfume? {PTSD, in need of love}
Wow, she’s so beautiful, I think, as I tug on my ripped jeans. I glance up and look at how she’s done her makeup…I wish I did mine like that. Her hair, I wish mine was that beautiful..oh look she’s smiling, wow she’s stunning. I wish I were like her. I lower my eyes, another chip has fallen off of my self esteem. {Insecurity, in need of love}
I get in the tram, just like every single day, and I feel like I can’t do this anymore. My job is awful, my coworkers leave me out, no one tips me correctly, I have no friends, my rent is due….why is life so horrible to me? Why me? I’m angry, again. I’m sad, again. Where is life going? {Disappointed & Worn out, in need of love}
I get in the tram, I put in my earphones and ride the tram. (In need of love.)
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We will never know what people are going through around us, but there is one thing we can know, that everyone is in need of love including ourselves.
even a loving smile has the ability to change someone’s day around, and a scowl, the ability to change someone’s day also.
Be aware of your surroundings, be kind to the people around you.
Xx